Reconnection

Hello bloggies,

It has been awhile. And not for the lack of something to say it is more like what I might has to offer that would be of interest to anyone out in the vast space that is the Internet. Life has turned again. I find myself in a position of leadership within my family. My husband who has been the primary bread winner is without of job for really the first time in a long while. He is in that very muddy place where it is dark and there is no way to know what he should be doing besides biking along the PCH with other unemployed architects. Now he gets that not being a member of the AIA has become costly since his brill ant resume is being ignored since those three annoying letters do not come after his name. So after many years of pleading, he has finally signed up for one of seven tests he needs to pass in order to cross the threshold of what ever has been holding him back.

I just spent five days with John Friend in the beginning of March. So wonderful to be with my teacher after such a long period of time. No one allows me the freedom to go deeper into myself then he does. Transformational at best and my Shakti has never been higher. Though it took about a week to come back to earth, I now know more than ever that I must take a much larger seat of the teacher so I'm throwing care to the wind and going for my full Anusara Certification. I'm ready to be torn apart, ripped to shreds in fact I welcome it.

I finally figured out how to just be me and teach. To use what interests me and turn it into a heart theme and let it flow freely from my inner voice. I've also become more attuned to the energies of my students so I teach what they need not what I've planned in order to teach some specific part of alignment principle that may not resonate with the class. It is as John say, " A Science and an Art." It take a special intrinsic knowing to get these just right. This is what makes this system of Anusara Yoga so challenging. You have to be an artist/instructor at the highest level to get the students feel that there is something bigger here then just a regular yoga class.

Life now is uncertain. It is possible that we could lose everything. I'm feeling the need to soldier on and be the one to step up. But it is hard since I have always want to be the one to be taken care off. Just laziness I suppose but now it is my time to shine and oh my what a challenge as I am surrounded by Power Yoga's dominant hold on Santa Monica. Everyday I explain what Anusara yoga is, who John Friend is. The good news is that John made such an impression on some of Power Yoga's instructors who attend the workshops that now they are bringing their experience back to their masses of students. Yah! The 100th monkey theory in action!

Well, I'll try to write more. This wasn't a very poetic post but perhaps that will come another day. Oh! Going to see the magical David Whyte! Maybe then I have more to say.

Blessing Divine Ones!

About butterfly net casting and the purpose of yoga

I remember one of my Anusara yoga teacher's theme about casting a butterfly net as a metaphor for seeking spiritual freedom in your heart through the method of yoga. The body is a vessel made up of limitation and restraint much like the net. Casting the net is an act of desire for what ever it is we are seeking. The butterfly is the thing we most want but we are afraid to to have completely because it could escape without ever returning. Butterflies are free, at least that is how the cliche goes, so what is the point of captuing something that is eternally free. Freedom is neither caught nor in danger of flying away. It is always with us and alway full of peace in our hearts. So the act of casting a butterfly net is perhaps less about attaining our desire and more about remembering who we really are. Nameste.